Colorado Carringtons in Indiana: July 2010

I wasn't going to post this, because it went in a different direction than I had planned, but it is a personal reflection, that I just let go in it's own direction. I haven't had 'time' to sit down in peace and quiet while able to 'relax' at the same time... tonight was my chance...

ahhhh, so the craziness has hopefully ended for a bit, and it is now time to breathe. Today was one of those days where I was able to just relax and enjoy being home with my girls. We did absolutely no running around- no errands, no grocery store... nada... it was wonderful! I bet the girls enjoyed it, too! It was nice to just breathe and enjoy life. It started out nice with a short rollerblade trip around on the Big Dry Creek Trail (behind our house)... then a nice story with the girls as I was getting ready to lay Kalina down for a nap. My favorite times during the day is when I have both girls in my lap for a story, or as Kalina is on the boppy, T just curls up on my legs and lays her head on the boppy and sometimes she just lays there, and others, like this morning, she brings a book and reads K and I a story. What else do I absolutely love about my girls? They adore each other and love each other so much. Once K hears T's voice, forget what we were just doing, and she just stretches and turns and wiggles around to find her sister. It's a good thing I don't EVER leave her on the changing table, because if I did, I'm sure she would roll right off, trying to find Tatum. Kalina is always smiling (the girl barely knows how to cry), and my favorite time to get her is right after she has been sleeping- she just gives that wonderful "OH, I'M SOOO HAPPY TO SEE YOU" smile that just lights up the room, but once she sees Tatum, somehow, it gets even bigger! I don't know how that is even possible. And Tatum, what a wonderful big sister! She loves her baby sister and just helps me out however she can. She loves to crawl into her crib with her, loves reading stories to her, shares her toys, lets her pull her hair (to an extent now), sings to her, wants to help feed her, helps change her diaper... the list goes on and on. It's amazing to me that she is just going to be 3 in a month... yet I can't believe she is already going to be three. Our little Tatum is becoming such a big girl. Tonight, I was just looking at her in awe... I had Kalina in my arms, putting her to sleep, when Tatum came to me and was telling me a story, and she is so descriptive about what she did and how and why she did it, I couldn't even respond. I just sat there looking at her, thinking, "oh my goodness, where has the time gone? She's such a big girl"... tears were welling up in my eyes, not sad tears, just tears... I am just amazed everyday at what she says, and the connections that she makes. Being Mom, definitely the best role I will ever have in life. To be able to watch my children grow and learn and become their own person, there is nothing better in life. Watching the girls grow, is just amazing. It's amazing watching a little baby learn to smile, laugh, sit, play, love, learn, talk, walk, think, and become a little girl with an imagination that goes on and on, a heart big enough to fit everyone she knows in, a genuine smile that will make your day brighter, hugs that feel so good, you don't want them to end... and those nights when T crawls into bed and curls up next to us... although we don't always get a good night's sleep... I absolutely cherish that time and am looking forward to having two little girls curling up in bed with us.